I find myself too cautious that I will not let myself care fully about those I'm surrounding myself with. I see the walls being built around me without me having put any brick. It's like a part of my brain is in charge of a construction I was not given the notice of. I do not like these walls, and I want to break them. But I don't want the arrows that can come when they are broken down, since I lay too bare behind them, and each shot is acting the target. But I do want to be able to built a bridge, accessible and recognisable, for those I know they are good souls.
There is some people in my office worth saving, no matter what, from the iceness behind these fortress; some people who are still nice in the harsh environment we are all living in. I just hope these walls that are being created without my permission are able to give shelter to them; because I know how warm and cosy it can be inside. Even if today I feel like even I've been kicked out from them.
A bit tired, and scared, and mostly fragile.
Maraya
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